Undiagnosed

Recently I had to stop seeing my therapist due to insurance problems, since she wasn't in network we had to pay for all of it, none of it was covered by insurance, and we couldn't afford it anymore. So I stopped seeing her which sucked because I was just getting used to her, it takes me a long time to open up to people so I somewhat feel like she really didn't get a chance to help me because I couldn't really let her in. I'm dreading seeing a new therapist now, you would think that after seeing the first one it would be easier for me since I've already been exposed to it, but now it just seems harder, I even considered going without therapy, but that just seems out of question with the way my anxiety has been getting worse and worse.

So anyway, the main point of this post is that I have never been diagnosed with an anxiety disorder, I was diagnosed with depression when I was 15 but I've never been formally diagnosed with an anxiety disorder. Hopefully with this therapist (who is a psychiatrist) I can get a diagnosis and then get some techniques to help me specifically.

I just want to be stable, I want to change my life. I'm sick of being depressed, angry, anxious. I'm sick of hating myself so much, so I'm going to finally stop wishing and do something about it. Nobody's going to fix me, they can help me, but ultimately I have to fix myself. Wish me Luck!